I just found a unrealistic solution like, it’s proven that people that are handsome/beautiful, have a bigger chance to success in their life. So if life would be fair, people would be as beautiful as their personalities.
That would be so great, instead of all those superficial, rotten, but really handsome/beautiful people living the life of their dreams
A lot of times when I’m alone in my bed at night I start thinking, like most of people I guess, and then there’s this truly dark thought that always comes running through my mind, depressing me.
I always start with going over my experiences, and what I experienced is that when people are good, or sweet, other people will use that and take profit from it. This happened to me and I know for sure this happened to so many of us.. So then next I start thinking that if you want to protect yourself from being used, people can’t know you are a good or sweet person before you already know they have good means with you. So then I conclude that if you want to protect yourself, you have to wear a mask all the time, except for with your friends, or you will be hurt like 75% of time you trust someone.
But then there’s this thing like, how can you meet people that are similar to you, make friends, if you always wear a mask? Maybe they are wearing this mask too, when do you know? How can you? You can not of course. And you can’t wear a mask your whole life, I think, because that would break your soul and heart and mind and everything.
So wearing a mask is NOT the solution, it doesn’t solve anything, because you will still be hurt right? You will make fake friends, people will not appreciate you for who you are, and that’s what you want if you are a good person right? You want people to know that you are good and that they can trust you, that you’re not one of the two-faced bitches everyone seems to like so much.
I think that you can only survive this life if you are two-faced, that’s the only thing that protects you from being hurt, being used, made profit of…
Then I wonder, is this life, thinking of all that, really worth living it?